I was on a conference call last week, and it turned into a complete mess, as most conf calls do. One girl, on the East coast who I’ve never met but have developed a rapport with via phone and email, kept trying to say something valid but nobody would listen. Finally she was able to break through the bitching, moaning and blame game to say, “I know this won’t change anything, but I need to be heard. I need to say this.” And went on to make her point.

Girlfriends. Le sigh, right? So many blogs on the subject, I know. I’ve posted about it before and I adore this post by my friend Brown Girl, as well.

{This post isn’t about the Blair to my Serena, just clarifying so ya’ll don’t have to google it. We’re solid.}

I’ve been called stuck up and a bitch by girls who haven’t spoken one word to me. This scares me into not wanting to try. I am moody, flighty and at times, my mind changes at the last minute. My life is so crazy and complicated that often I don’t let potential friends all the way in because it’s hard to know who to trust, and frankly, sometimes I can’t worry about letting down one.more.person. I come off snobby when I don’t mean to at all because I get very quiet if I’m uncomfortable or out of my element. I might make plans with you because I really do want to see you, but have to cancel because of above said crazy life, or because I just need to sit in my room and decompress and I’m afraid to tell you all the crazy going on in my head. Sometimes I forget to write thank you cards. I am too hard on myself and sometimes that means I can be too hard on my friends. I’m working on all these things, and I appreciate the girls in my life who make me want to be a better friend, you know who you are.But, if you need to talk, you better call me! When you’re really sick, I will pray and rally my troops and get a whole heck of a lotta people praying for you. If you’re in the hospital, I will want to be by your side. Wild horses couldn’t keep me away. I will stay up all night with you talking, I will hate the guy who hurt your heart, call him names and cry with you. I will tell you what shoes you should wear and yes, of course duh, you can borrow mine and sure, I’ll do your makeup before your date! If you need a place to stay, you’ve got one. I will tell you highly inappropriate jokes to make you laugh when you’re upset. If you live across the country, I’ll buy a plane ticket simply because I want to sit on the couch with you and watch Curb, because I love you. I’ll support your decisions, celebrate your achievements, encourage your dreams, sympathize with your pms, remind you of your worth should you forget, be in your wedding, do the makeup for your wedding, and so on and so forth… Meaning…once you’re in my heart, you’re in. Super glued, cemented, and I do the best I can.

This weekend, I was hurt by a very good friend. Or so I thought she was. I don’t want to slander her publicly because she’s doing it enough to herself and I feel more pity for her than anything else but…I NEED TO BE HEARD. I feel conned, used, taken for granted and sad. Angry? Latina fury? Hell yes. But sad because I trusted her, she was in my heart…and I just don’t understand. Life happens, people aren’t who they seem and I hope she gets the help that she so desperately needs. There are no excuses for the way she treated me…and until she owns up to that, I can’t have her in my life. And it hurts to write that, and mean it.

{This picture isn’t nice. But it made me laugh.}

Thank you for being here, friends.

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Happy Thursday Dolls!!

So, I’m pretty darn jealous of my twinny. She’s going to Coachella this weekend all V.I.P style. Usually I’m not a big music festival girl…I would find myself at the parties thrown by all the press there instead, laying by the pool, getting swag and maybe going to see a few performances.

The lineup this year is so random and eclectic that it actually interests me though, I just realized. TOO LATE, I might add. I’m pretty over the Killers, The Cure and Paul McCartney but I’d sooo want to see these…

The Airborne Toxic Event

The Black Keys

The Ting Tings

Beirut

James Morrison

The Kills (How adorable is ‘Cheap and Cheerful’, right?)

MSTRKRFT

Jenny Lewis (Rilo Kiley still has my heart though)

Junior Boys (I used to listen to ‘In the Morning’ on repeat at work ALLLL DAY)K, I just put it on…ok…back to my list…

TV on The Radio-’Wolf Like Me’, much? Another song that I used to be obsessed with. Anddd I just put that on…omg I want to go to COACHELLA!!!!

Here’s the video for ‘In The Morning’…the video isn’t spectacular but the song pretty much makes my life complete.



Boo. Oh well, I hope she has fun!

If I was going…I’d wear something like this…and trust me, I’ve been to Palm Springs/Indio many times and I’m aware of how impractical this is for a music festival in the desert haha…but since it’s all make believe, who cares? I fell in love with this set…and I’ve blogged about that belt before…it will be mine!!!! Topshop! My favorite store in London now is in the US!! YAY! And the YSL shoes…le sigh.

Have a lovely evening, dolls…I’m going to have a glass of wine and cuddle my puppy!

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Two…Charity Makes Me Happy…( Image of me for Socialvibe.com)

Three…A closet full of shoes makes me Happy…

Four…Taking a Chance and Adding a Little Color Makes Me Happy…

Five…Being a Twin Makes Me Happy…

Six…First Kisses Make me Happy …

Rules of Tag:

1) link back to the person who tagged you.
2) post these rules on your blog.
3) share 6 things that put a smile on your face.
4) pass the tag along to 6 other fabulous blogs.
5) let the tagged people know by leaving a comment on their blogs

I tag the 6 following absolutely delicious blogs…check them out!

1.) Yamila at Yamila Gonzalez…justi… por su gracia.
2.) Lisa at Brian Says I’m Beautiful
3.) Krystal at What Is Reality Anyway.com
4.) Franco at RiverMist Expressions
5.) Kay at Stitched
6.) Gabby at Gabby, She Wrote

In other UNBEWEAVABLE news-

I GOT A NEW JOB TODAY!!! Right as I’m walking out of Target…that place is magic! I’m so excited!! xoxo

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