Today, I Am Grateful.

Today, I am grateful.

For…

A Best friend who shows up at my house just as I was about to need her the most…

…and tells me I need to make a phone call I don’t want to but in the same breath says, “While you’re doing it, I’ll put Jay-Z on and everything will be ok.”

Jay-Z and his music. MAGIC, I tell you.

Beer. Macaroni and cheese. CARBS! Pinkberry! All eaten WITH my personal trainer, by the way.

Said personal trainer reassuring me that it’s totes ok to eat my feelings because he’ll kick my ass bright and early the next morning. He did.

Realizing that nothing just happens. Realizing that I am surrounded by love, by people who care, who’s actions speak louder than words…and choosing NOT to allow one let down take me back to the dark place, the place where I expect this, deserve this, should have known this would happen blah blah blah. Wondering if I’ve closed the door on that dark place for good.  For now, I just choose to smile because my life, with all of it’s ups and downs, is just so GOOD…and so damn fun. On that note…

Dating like a mother-effing MAN.

Soulmates who get web cams for the sole purpose of furthering our co-dependency via Skype, and why do I feel like Chris Hansen should be knocking on my door every time I say “web cam” like I’m straight out of To Catch a Predator or something?!

Texts from San Fran, San Diego, Canada, Florida, New York-from girls who prove distance is just a state of mind and friendship laughs in the face of state lines and time zones.

Confidence that does not come from smaller dress sizes, but from within. New plans. New career goals and a network of friends ready and willing to do anything to help.

Today, I am grateful. What are you grateful for?

Last week, the world lost a beautiful girl too soon, a girl who was closer to my sister than I, someone who was just SO special. Gretchen was there for my sister when I lived far away, when my sister needed a friend the most. Gretchen always gave me a huge hug when I saw her and had a smile on her face permanently-she was a true LIFE LIVER. Quirky, silly, with such a great sense of self-I used to watch her from a far and marvel at someone who knew who she was inside and out, and wasn’t afraid of it. She embraced it. It’s so cliche’ and I fear, selfish of me to think this way, but it is yet another reminder that life is all too short, that all we have is this moment, this day to be a good friend, to say the things we should have said, to swallow our pride and apologize. To be ourselves and take chances, and LIVE every moment of this life we have been blessed with.

You can read more about Gretchen on my sister’s blog-she wrote a truly lovely tribute.

XO

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