First,
I realized how much I’ve been taking for granted. Nasomuch the gorgeous scenery…I’m not going down that route here, although are we spoiled geographically? Absolutely.
I don’t usually eat corn dogs. I eat maybe one hot dog a year, or when they’re forced upon me at sporting events. They just tend to freak me out in general. My sister stumbled upon this little corn dog and lemonade shack one night at 2am once, and she took me there, this time at 2 in the afternoon. We walked on the pier, there were dolphins and I was eating meat on a stick. For the first time in a long time, I felt free. Who knew that’s all I needed?
I’m still searching for balance. Between being here but wanting to be there, NOW, between filling voids within myself with things, people I shouldn’t rather than taking the time to find out what exactly is making me feel so empty sometimes. I’m stuck in that completely annoying place where the one I want is the one I can’t have, and as I sit here typing this, listening to old soul music and quite pleased with the manicure I got today (Essie Mink Muffs ftw), I’m searching for the answer to what the hell am I doing with my life. What really matters? Do we ever really know? Or do we just do the best we can, take the bad along with the good and sometimes, just enjoy a god damn corn dog? It was a REALLY good corn dog. 
Today, new beginnings…amazing opportunities. I am now an official freelance writer…you know, one who gets paid. My head is spinning, and when my pieces go up-pieces I am working on like crazy right now, you’ll be the first to know, and as always, your support means the world.
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Love you kitten!
ugh, i just typed a whole long comment to you, but then it somehow got erased. anyways, corn dogs freak me out. the end.
I cannot W.A.I.T. to read your new writing. I have no doubt it will be fabulous:)
And I don't think anyone ever knows where they are going! Lord knows I am always freaking out about the unknown. Sometimes it's hard to just enjoy the ride.
Ok, I am rambling. I tend to do that. Just know that everyone loves and supports you and you're unbeweavable!
congrats on the freelance job lady, that is amazing. hope everything turns up for you, you know i love u:)
Love you doll…I understand the search for meaning..as corny as it sounds I was only able to find meaning in my relationship with God…so hard to get there though..I still want purpose I still want to make an impact…and feel stuck as well..prayin for you sweety! Congrats on the freelance and just know if anything you need to be proud of the impact you make on peoples lives every day through your blog and beauty LOVE YOU!
that is so awesome about the job!! congrats! and i love corndogs..haha! i haven't had one in forever! i am wishing you the best of luck with the freelance job!
Congrats on the freelance writing gig! I'm a new follower and love your blog so far!
Oh dear! Congrats on the freelance gig! This will in no way hinder your move out here right? Good. Can't wait =)
You keep writing and i'll keep reading
Now as far as THAT corn dog…you MUST take me there "when" i visit. And as far as meat on a stick…there should be a man attached to that. Lol
so… you rock. Nuff said? probably not. but words are being blocked by an insane headache right now.
For the past few days i've also had this empty feeling inside, and I don't know what to do to get rid of it. I feel like i'm stuck and don't know how to get out. The things I used to love don't excite me anymore, and the guy i'm head over heels for? He's not good news and there is no future with him. What a glorious start to 2010! Lol. On the other hand, I try to appreciate the little things and I try to smile every day. The amazing sunsets, the fact that my brother is here and he's always willing to hang out when i'm lonely, and the fact that so many other have it way worse (think Haiti), really humbles me and puts things into perspective. Finding that balance is hard!
We do the best we can. That's the bottom line… we can't do anything else – that's for sure.
At least that's what I am getting from life
I am excited about your writing deary… you're going to great!
Glad you're back. Love ya lady
xo
Though my corndogs are faux posers, I couldn't agree more with all that. It sounds like you're getting to a really good place..
Congrats on pursuing freelance! It's so amazing when people are able to turn passions into something great for the rest of the world to enjoy.
I can most defs. relate to seeking balance. I'm search has been mildly successful so far. Then again, we're only 2 weeks into the new year!
Awesome news Hunny!! Love you.
I fricking love corn dogs…
I've never had a corndog. What do they taste like? Are any corns or dogs harmed in the making of corndogs? I don't like to eat anything that is living or was once living.
Hang in there lady love….
You're doing amazing, and if corn dogs ever don't work, chocolate always does.
And shopping.
Congrats on your new writing!!! Jealousy! =)
Jealous of your dog/lemonade/dolphin experience. Sounds divine!
I don't believe I'm truly qualified to comment on this as I've never had a corn dog. Am I missing something?
Love the introspection, as always it's pretty much my favourite subject for a post. Unless you personally know Jessica Alba.
Sooo…I guess if one were so inclined to take a trip to your local beach this weekend they won't find you crushin' on a hot surfer-type, as you'll be too busy for such nonsense. *wink*
Love it! You sound excited and alive again. Welcome Back!
I like what you said about living the life the best we can, just shove the negative aside!
you 're an amazing girl loved by lots of people, Liz, even I can guarantee if you remind yourself that you won't be upset for long 
Ps. You make me crave all sorts of hotdogs, I'm not huge into corn dogs but I want one of those huge chili dogs. Must get it today.:p
My friends made fun of me for the longest time because I call corn dogs "coney dogs". Potayto, Putahto. I've come to realize no matter how many weiners you put in your mouth, you're always questioning the 'now'. (Inappropriate, I know. I couldn't help it, my mind is nothing but filth.) You always look for new meanings and new answers, even after you find meanings and answers. Life is just funny that way. Congrats on the gig, that is so awesome and I am only slighlty jealous
sometimes it's the simple things in life that matter and make us smile. and yay for adding another job title to your name! we women are so multi-dimensional.
so glad you enjoyed a day of free living. =] i hear ya, i need to find my balance too!
FUCK YEAH BITCH….KNOCK …KNOCK…
Hello ..Liz its Life!
and once you opened that door…isnt it amazing how things just fall into place and while all that bullshit behind that closed door can spin its self back to the same place… doing the same shit – you're out there making shit happen. now thats real talk if i ever heard.
congrats love! and beach – yeah, jealous. i'd trade you my coco bag for an afternoon basking in the sun.
I really think we just do the best we can, the good, the bad, the funny, the tragic, the unexpected…
*And I think you are doing a pretty good job!
Congrats on the free lance work. And sometimes all you need is the beach and meat on a stick
I love this post. It's perfect
Glad to hear you're enjoying the simple things.
Maybe a corn dog will make me feel better! I LOVE deep fried corn dogs. lol
Here's to new beginnings darling! A huge congrats on the new gig dear.
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Congrats on being a badass freelancer!
P.S. It got up to 42 degrees in Cleveland today! Spoiled scenery here, anyone?!
Congratulations on all the good things happening. I can't wait to see what comes next.
Congrats on the writing!
Embarassing tidbit: Ever since I was a kid, I've had a love for super, crispy corndogs…
Hello lady…How awesome are you? So many fabulous things have headed your way and it's more than deserved. I'm so glad that you realized corn dogs equal happiness!
I just want you to know that it will be okay! You only need to stop not like where you are and wanting to be somewhere else…because it drains you. Just focus on here…here and now. Disengage from your "self" and enjoy everything around you. It's all beautiful and you will find peace with the now. I know it
Congrats! You really deserve it! Life will be better every day!
What wonderful news! And who knew a corn dog could do that to ya?! Have a fabulous weekend, pretty lady!
Congratulations hun! And now you got me in a Coney Island state of mind…. mmm.
god, congrats on the new job honey!! it's so exciting!! i think everyone gets a job but me..
and also, i have been asking those same questions for a little while and can2t find good answers trust me!! it's so hard to figure things out.. and it's depressing.. but i have you
and you DEFINITELY have me.. no doubt.. i'm here for you darling.. always..
love you so much!!
xoxo
Ahh…I wanna go to the beach and eat corn dogs with you and your sister! Glad you're finding a good balance in life…even if it does require eating meat on a stick!
How fabulous! I wish I had the luxury of taking a stroll with you on the beach, eating a corn dog. Maybe with ketchup and mustard dripping down our chins, we could be simply happy.
There's something so festive and exciting about meat on a stick! Sometimes it's the little things, y'know? Here's hoping you have a whole weekend full of little things that help you feel free.
Yes! I know exactly what you mean.
I think this is a very tricky time in our lives–our mid twenties (EEK!–because it's like we want to figure everything out and somehow we feel we should have it figured out by now, and then we feel like time is running out, and instead of wanting time to fast forward, we're suddenly wanting it to slow down. (Deep breath…) You know? I know that even as I take the time to fill my life with things that really matter–him, friends, family, art, etc–I still have those days where I feel like I'm on the verge of losing it. I used to be anxious to grow up and now I'm terrified of growing old and accomplishing nothing. Which, I know won't be the case…but still, these are the thoughts that torment me. And, anyway, long tangent–basically to say that I'm so happy I found you, because it's the most encouraging thing to find other girls/women who are going through a lot of the same things I am, and it basically just reminds me to smile, and just be me, and that every thing else will work itself out, because we are all in this together.
Ummm…holy ramble! Lol. Hope you're having a great week, pretty. Yay Friday! <3
so glad to hear that everything is working out & can't wait to read your freelance pieces!
You, my love, have such a beautiful soul! And your writing skills? Phenomenal. With each new post, I think I love you more and more! It's like no matter what you say, you have this way of presenting it that makes it totally easy to identify with you. Take, for example the corn dogs. While I was reading your post, I was seriously wishing that I was walking along the pier eating a corndog with you and Gabby so that I, too, could feel this freedom that you were describing!
I've said it a million times before, and I'll say it again right now – I am sooooo very excited for you and all the fabulous things that 2010 holds for you! A new life, a new town, a new outlook. Girlie! 2010 is your year, and you're going to take the world by storm! And as you are out there being the badass that you know you are, just know that you have oh so many people who love you and support you and who are cheering you on the entire way!
Love you Liz! You seriously have the best posts. Sometimes all it takes is some sun, friends and good food. Glad you're getting it all figured out. And congrats on becoming a freelancer!
Congrats sweetie. So happy for you.
gorgeous picture! tell your sister she rocks!
also, YOU rock — congrats on the freelance gig!
*sigh* I think most of us twentysomethings can relate. I always get the feeling that I'm missing out on "something", but then feel sad as I see my twenties (the supposed time of my life) passing me by. I'm learning that the key is to stay focused on the present. Not worry about what we're going to do tomorrow or what we could've done differently yesterday. Just do the very best with what we have today. And sometimes enjoying the present means savoring the juicy flavors in a corndog. I'm glad you found your voice, because I really enjoy hearing what you have to say
Congrats on the new gig!
corndogs and dolphins! how amazing!
horay for the new opportunities hun!! you rock! luv ya bunches…have a fabulous weekend!! XO!
Liz, we do the best we can, and when we're feeling down or really just want to enjoy a gorgeous day, we eat a corn dog and enjoy the scenery.
What we want can change daily. What we need out of life can change daily. So, we play it by ear. Go day by day. One foot in front of the other. All those annoying cliches… because they're kinda true.
I'm so happy to hear about your free-lance gig! It's amazing when you get hooked up like that. So have fun with it and don't worry so much about the other crap.
Usually the food I find at 2 am tastes no where near as good when I go back at 2 pm.
And doesn't meat on a stick make everything better?
I wish I lived where you do. Right now our scenery is snow, snow, and more snow piled high. Ugh!
xoxo
Yay for corndogs and new opportunities ~ congrats, darling!
xoxox,
CC
Congrats on the writing job… you are a gifted writer Liz.
Congrats and I heart Mink Muffs
We do the best we can.
Corn dogs and dolphins? Deets puh-leeze! I wasn't much of corn dog fan until I had the ones at Disneyland. Those are total YUM. Congrats on being an official freelance writer, Liz! That is awesome news.
congrats on the freelance work!! can't wait to see!
also, i have never had a corndog. i have no idea what they taste like. i feel like that's kinda weird.
Lemonade, strange meat in cornbread, and sunny beaches – it's a good life doll.
So excited about you becoming a freelance writer. As always, we know you will rock.
So glad things are looking up, I missed smily Liz. The balance thing… ehhh I do not know if it is out there, if you find it please let me know because I would certainly like some.
Congrats on starting off as a freelance writer. That is amazing. Good luck to you with that. =)
So glad you found your voice again!!
Have a Bright, Bold, and Beautiful weekend Liz!!
xoxo
how exciting that you're freelancing! There are so many wonderful things ahead of you! Have a great weekend Liz! xox
Congrats on the freelance gig, that's AWESOME! So much better than a 9-5 office gig like I have
Smooches my love.
Who knew that a corn dog could bring such inner peace. I will have to try one. Hahaha.
GOOD LUCK TONIGHT! I am looking forward to the update tomorrow.
Corn dogs rock, for real. I freaking love corn dogs with mustard of course. Love you hooker!
It's funny when you have that moment of peace…..whilst eating a corn dog!!
hey the freelance writing sounds exciting!
xxx
I'm seriously proud of you on the Freelance Writing biz… and I wanna read your stuff!
And I must admit, I'm hella jealous that you live by the ocean… I'm a water girl at heart and soul… someday I will live by the water, someday…
Have a fab, unbeweavable weekend lover!!
xoxo J
Yay for new beginnings and amazing opportunities, Lizzy – no one deserves them more!
And, ummm…thank God I am not the only one who is freaked out by hot dogs! Honestly, they scare the living daylights out of me; plus they don't smell too great either. :/
P.S Thanks for letting me know about the Dermalogica mask! That's another brand I haven't had much luck with.
Anyways, Happy Friday!
I ask myself the same questions all the time, especially lately. it is exhausting though, all that self reflection!
but I think I like what you said: that we just do the best that we can, take the bad with the good, and enjoy a corn dog! haha. or any other good food in arms reach 
anyway, congrats on becoming an "official" freelancer! that's exciting!
I hope you have a good weekend, Liz!
btw, for all the giveaways I have entered over here (and actually won one!), I can now return the favor… I am giving away some cute stuff on my blog!
Corn Dogs are kind of weird…have you ever seen the people at Hot-Dog-on-a-Stick? Yeah that stuff looks freaky.
Love you, sweetie. Happy weekend, darling and I'd be watching the surfers as well.
I FEEL THE SAME WAY!!
And I love the very, very occasional corn dog.
I love you. I hope your weekend is AMAZING.
So happy you're back to yourself. Aaaaand back as a freelance WRITER!!! So happy for you…congrats CC, that is wonderful because it'll make you h-a-p-p-y.
Can't wait to read your stuff!
I would love to eat a corn dog with you. Name the time, I know the place.
I hope you have a great weekend, sweetie pie!
So glad you found your voice!!!
XOXO,
Erin
A freelance writer?!? Congratulations, Lizzy, that is awesome!!!
It's funny how such a small thing can make all the difference, glad that meat on a stick did more than just feed your tummy
Oh and I just had that colour on last week!
Happy weekend, Lizzy love!
MEAT ON A STICK.
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Welcome back. I am also trying to figure out what the hell I'm doing with my life. Interesting…
Corndogs!! I haven't had one is years, so I will just relish in your delish experience…
Cannot wait to read your fabulous work – so be sure to share when it's up darling!!
XOXO
That is awesome about the freelance work! Congrats!
So jealous of your beach trip, it looks GORGEOUS… pretty pretty!
So glad thing sar egoing well for you. And congrats on being officially a freelance writer. So neat!
a corndog! haha! sometimes it is the little things in life that make one so happy.
as for the big things in life, i don't have it all figured out. i am trying to find ways to not be miserable. how lame is that?!?!? must concentrate on the good and try to fix the bad, and find ways to deal with not getting all i want in life. easier said than done, but must try!
and lucky you by the beach! i was in long beach today and had lunch by the beach. it was amazingly beautiful and it made me want to live there. until i started being stupid and thinking about tsunamis and such. gsus!
hope your weekend is glorious.
Liz check out my blog when you get a chance, you might see something familiar. *wink*
Been wondering how you are, hopefully not laid up surrounded by hankies and cold medicine.
I hear you on the balance thing. Congrats on the job. You do live in a geographically pleasing location, but Cali is kind of known for that.
That's a bee-utiful beach shot. Makes me want to fly out there and soak up some California sun. Hope you're having a fantastic weekend, and congrats on the job. Seeing how much I love reading your blog, I'm sure you'll be a great freelance writer.
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I've never had a corn dog. good or bad?
ps I'll work on a guest post for you. Give me a topic idea and I'll run with it.
i just read barry's post on a post you wrote previously, and i absolutely loved it. i agree that we all have to love ourselves before we can love others truly. great blog!
Congratulations on becoming a freelance writer! You're going to do really well. And look, I can relate to being uber busy with projects in our lives, etc etc, but take a deep breath and a day to recharge, and you'll find that the long list of to-do things that was putting you in a chokehold is easier to approach than you think…
I have no idea where I'm going, if that helps. I just pretend I do.
Welcome to the world of freelance writing!! CAN'T WAIT to see your article!! xoxo
Good luck with freelance writing! And I hope you find your balance soon; I've discovered that balance really is the key to happiness.
And of course I'm totes jealous of your geographic area. I feel I should have done my college searching better and only looked at Cali schools!
congrats on freelancing!
Here's to your new begininngs…
I just love those aha moments when no matter how insignificant it may seem you just have a moment where everything makes sense, your mind is clear on where you are going and your just happy in that space…
love it
hello miss. if you take that gorgeous view for granted again, I'm going to fly there just to smack you in the face.
also, YAY! way to be a PAID freelance writer! congrats!
I'm so happy for you Liz! I'm sure you'll go a long way. =)
xx,
betz
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so happy for you! yay for us xoxox
congrats on ur freelance writing chica!!
: )
where are u writing ? cuz i wana read it!!
I'm proud of you for sticking through everything and balance is really hard to achieve sometimes and I think as long as you are doing the best you can that is all that matters. Hang in there lovely lady – you have a great year ahead of you!
excited for you on your new opportunities and I can't wait to read your pieces. your writing is always so inspiring.
love you girl!
Congrats!!
I am so happy for you!
it somehow got erased. anyways, corn dogs freak me out. the end.
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Awesome on the free lance gig! If you ever need any advice, at all!!, seriously, feel free to ask away!! It's a great opportunity and opens so many doors!
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