For some reason, I’m putting a lot of pressure on myself, on this post. I think that basically sums up New Years, anyway, no? A lot of fucking pressure…it has to be better. It has TO. Right? I mean, I know that’s all I’m hanging on to lately. I’m going to forgo the usual resolutions…yes, I ate like it was going out of style this last month and have ignored the gym, my trainer-HI STEVEN, and Jillian Michaels.
Speaking of…remember when I talked mad shit on the Dallas Cowboy Cheerleaders workout DVD? I totes put it on my Christmas List, and yep…those bitches are staring at me right now. I’m eating a cake ball and they’re staring at me with their judgey eyes. Also? Cake balls are weird, if you really think about it. Which I am, for some reason.
See, this is what happens when I put pressure on myself to write. Aren’t you the lucky ones…
I did not like 2009. My 2009 is the equivalent of a mean muggin whore with bad hair. Like so many others, I got laid off. My sister got laid off. I spent a lot of 2009 sick. Lit-rilly. I have tonsils that need to be removed, but that’s a little tricky after you get laid off. Turns out, good health insurance is mighty important. I was involved in a very unhealthy relationship. You know the story, if you’ve been around for a while. Basically…
2009 bitch slapped me with a heavy dose of reality.
The slap echoed that of Snooki’s…it was hard, unexpected and totally messed up my hair. I’m not going to rehash every hardship this year has presented me, every morning I wake up and I am positive I am being punked (Ashton, seriously, you made your point), every time my heart has been hurt, every night I have gone to sleep alone, lonely. Shit happens. Life happens. I’m moving on. Letting go. That is my resolution. Letting go.
I’m not where I thought I would be, but I am learning that maybe I’m where I am supposed to be. I’m standing on the edge of a huge jump, one that I’m doing on my own…without a ring on my finger, without a hand to hold. But with more confidence and sense of self than I have ever had.
2010, I welcome you. Can I get you anything?! Make yourself comfortable! Love your shoes! And 2009, I would like to thank you, ON YOUR WAY OUT. Without you, pushing me, punking me, throwing up road block after road block, I fear I would still be that girl breezing through life, shopping to numb my feelings, dating douche lord after douche lord, wasting my heart, money, time. Throwing my amex and my hair around while taking everything, and everyone, for granted.
Empty.
2010 isn’t going to be better magically. It’s not like on Friday morning, bam, all my problems will disappear, I’m aware of that. I’m also aware that this new year will be what I make of it. And I plan to make it amazing. Fabulous. Fulfilled. BADASS. Cheers, dolls!
2010…the Unbeweavable journey continues. With you 
Happy New Year! Be safe! Back on Monday in full force
Happy New Year! Be safe! Back on Monday in full force 
(Images 1 and 2 via we heart it. 3 is mine.)
P.S. 20sb’ers…I think I have a chance, I’d really appreciate your vote. Besos!
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yay for you elizabeth. goodbye to everything in the past and hello to a brand new year. !
Ok I adore you even more!!! I just wrote a really lame good riddance 09 post…nothing compared to your genius writings!! I too am looking forward to 2010! Happy New Year lady xoxo
here's to a fresh start in the new year for ALL of us:)
2009 wasn't my favorite year either. You got a great analogy with the slap of reality. Your absolutely right. The new year is what we make of it. SHow 2009 who really matters & who really cares & send it off. Good luck girl. I like hearing about your journey.
btw…I LOL at the Dallas cheerleaders. There's always tomorrow to start up again!!
Good luck with the tonsils. I will have to get mine out eventually too. yeesh!
Cheers girly!
Cheers Liz… 2010 will be fab. Happy New Year love… catch you next week. (I maybe in the US by then) Hugs!
Amen, sister! Happy 2010
Peace out to '09!!! I have a feeling you gonna make 2010 your bitch!! Get it girl!
"I'm not where I thought I would be, but I am learning that maybe I'm where I am supposed to be." PERFECT. And so true, hon.
2010 is going to be amazing for you and the lady loves in my life (and me too:)). It HAS TO BE!!! We will MAKE it so it is. Here's to letting go so we can embrace the goodness the future holds.
Love you!
p.s. Babe, what's a cake ball? Is it like a really big cake pop?
absolutely loved this. and "eating a cake ball" me too, right now. lol.
This is EXACTLY how I feel. 2009 gave me the shaft and as much as I appreciate the strength I found, I am OVER IT. I'm planning to write down all the bad shit that happened this year and spend new years eve burning it and letting go. I'm so ready for 2010. Here's to an epic amazing year! xoxo
I loved that you just referenced Jersey Shore in your post….by far best post of the day.
Amen, girlfriend! I love this post and LOVE the idea of embracing 2010. It's like the ep of SATC where Samantha says the girls have to "grab 40 by the balls" – I say we all do the same with 2010!
amen girl. 2010 has gotta be a better year than this one.
plus, you talked about snooki in your post. snooki makes everything better … at the very least she should make you feel GREAT about your life! 
2009 was a tough year, i'm so happy it's coming to an end! Here's to 2010!
Out with 2009 in with 2010! This wasn't the best year of our lives; but 2010 is going to be so A-MA-ZING! N.D. Walsch said "Life begins at the end of your comfort zone." We are leaving our comfort zone, Lizzy – for the adventure of a lifetime!!! We are going to be fabulous, and so is 2010!! Love, love, love you!!!
This is such a nice post Eli. I can relate a lot to it and my resolution for the next year is to let go as well. 2009 was a year of emotional loss too among other things and I'm also grateful for it because u came across my life as well. I hope to be at least a small peck of brightness in your life since I know you will be a big part of mine. You already are.
Besos darling
Hope your 2010 is 1million times better than 2009. Good on you letting go and moving on and being positive about life!!
i love you! 2009 can suck a fat one, ready to take on a fabulous 2010! it will be all of our year!!
So I may be in the miniority but 2009 was pretty great for me. HOWEVER prior to '09 I had some pretty hellish years that I try to repress daily. If things could turn around for me then they can/WILL certainly turn around for you. Sometimes life has to knock you on your ass before it can lift you back up. 2010 is going to be pretty damn Unbeweavable for you. I FEEL IT in my bones!
xoxo
P.S. I read that Snooki wants her own dating show called "Snookin for Love" I would watch that shit in a HEARTBEAT!!!
It's time to…RING OUT THE OLD AND RING IN THE NEW shall we say!!!
May all your dreams come true…all your hard work and determination pay off as i know it will. Have a wonderful 2010 hun.
{{Hugs}}
i loved this post, liz. "letting go" … that's a GREAT resolution. you have an awesome perspective – 2010 won't necessarily be "perfect," but it will be fresh and new and you go into it smarter, stronger, and more beautiful than ever. don't look at 2009 as the worst year ever – look at it as a year that brought you through hell, but you're coming out on top and letting go of it all.
happy new year, hun! xoxo
Well spoken… i couldn't agree more
i'm letting go right there with you.
my heart broke and i felt emptiness i never thought a human could feel…
and now in a few days i will be leaving to be with a great guy in VA. 2010, this will be our year!
i'm so glad to be a part of your journal. xo
This one of my favorite posts of yours. It was very very well written, so no more stressing or pressure.
I'm with you. 2010, bring it! 2009, peace out!
I love this post. Cheers to 2010 and everything it's going to bring.
hopefully next year which starts in a few days will be much better. much much better!
hopefully next year which starts in a few days will be much better. much much better!
i too love this. the funny thing is we're never where we want to beat any given point in our lives, we just imagine things to be different.
cheers to 2010!
I wish you nothing but the best in 2010! I'm about ready for a fresh new start myself! And now I'm off to vote for you
-Ashley
http://breakfastatsaks.blogspot.com
Oh Lizzy, yes yes YES. You hit the nail on the head. 2009 can suck sweaty balls and 2010 will rock out with it's cock out, because WE say so!!
Love you girl, you rock my world!!
xoxo J
Awwww, my sweets….how could anyone be mean to YOU??? Especially 2009???
Where's it at? Lemme at em.
And if 2010 isn't any better, you know where to find me. I gotchyo back.
loves. i needed a slap of motivation for the new year, so thank you. things will be better!
aw, i love you elizabeth! i am sorry that it has been a rough year, but i appreciate knowing that you are real and strong and look how far you have come?! you are an inspiration to so many. you deserve nothing but the best! love you!
great post… I agree… 2009 goodbye… 2010 hello… and she is wearing pretty shoes right?
hee hee.
I totes love you, and you're wear you need to be… you're perfectly perfect… I love you.
2010 HERE we come!
Where have you been all my life? I miss you so much too!!! Hope all is well, totally love your New Years Res…I completely share your feelings on that one…
Loves you Pretty!
XO,
Erin
I'm so glad that we both decided to blog, and I've gotten to know you. Your blog has really taken off since we met. I had to laugh when I read the punk'd comment b/c I've said many times that I'm waiting for Ashton to come out and tell me I'm getting punk'd. (there's just no way this is real, right??) I know we have a lot to give and a lot more living to do! Maybe we should be glad that we don't have anything holding us back. (UGH but really…another night alone)
I remember you saying something so sweet to me one time, "We're all the same when we take off our makeup at night." You meant that we all have the same desires no matter who we are..Girl, I'm totally in the same shoes as you.
Love you!
Allison
Liz, you are my hero. seriously, couldn't have said it better. I had a lot of things happen in 2009 that made me hit rock bottom. I've led a very "easy" life but the bad things that happened this year is enough to last me a lifetime. I'm so ready for it to be over and am optimistic that 2010 will be a spectacular year for both me AND you. I just know it. Oh and we WILL meet up this year which is already a highlight!
love you!
letting go is hard, but i'm so glad you've given yourself the goal of doing this. here's to 2010 being awesome!
i can't agree with you more- 2010 is going to be fresh outlook & positive change. i've finally gotten to a place where i'm happy being without my ex. it's a hard journey. good luck dear!
(in my opinion we're better off without em!)
I hated 2009 >:-(
I agree that 2009 can see itself out, and stay out. I'm glad you're realizing that where you are is where you're meant to be, perhaps. I know I spend WAY too much time thinking about other times and places and losing thing I could be experiencing in the present.
Here's to a new year!
As they say back home in Georgia…you better testify Lizzie! This post had me nodding and "hmhmh"-ing from beginning to end.
You don't get anything precious without going through a bit of fire first…not gold, not diamonds, not even cupcakes. Your 2010 is gonna be awesome…I just know it.
I'm all for taking that bitch that was 2009 and strangling the life out of her. What a shiteous year. Let's all move on, shall we?
oh honey
i'm so sorry to hear that 2009 was so harsh on you, but don't worry because 2010 is coming up! but as you said, it is what you make of it 
stay positive and everything will fall into place 
*hugs*
Wishing you an early, unbe-weavable, happy new year!
sing it sister!! I love love, LOVE this post and feel I need to carry on the same feelings thursday night when the ball drops! thank you for this post!
Well babe I tell ya one thing..you sure tell it how it is and damn I admire you for it. You really are something honey!
You are half way there cause you understand and you get IT.
Hey I'm totally with you on the gym thing and cake thing, I was just whining about it this very minute…okay workout here I come.
xxx and hugs DJ
this is a really good approach to the upcoming year, and i need to do the same. good riddance to 2009, and we can make 2010 a helluva lot better.
mmmm liz lady.. best post yet. i loved this. this WILL be our year! i love how you said thank you to 2009 on it's way out. seriously 2010 will bring sooo many new adventures with POSITIVE outcomes. if not we'll have to bitch slap the ho and shape it up!
i love you lady and am totally ready for us to keep it up in 2010. all i have to say is BRING IT.
"I'm standing on the edge of a huge jump, one that I'm doing on my own…without a ring on my finger, without a hand to hold. But with more confidence and sense of self than I have ever had." I love you doll and plan to jump with you…you arent alone in this journey there are several of us who are starting it this year 2010….lets make our goal to meet some how some way and enjoy the day! <3 YOU ALWAYS
Yeah, baby, I feel you!
2009 did nothing for me. Letting on is what I suppose I should work on…it's on the list along with become awesome at my guitar playing and becoming more trusting.
*The glasses go clink* Here's to 2010, may it be the year we have been waiting for!
Love, kisses!
I hope 2010 treats you fabulously! And you totally have my vote!
2008 was the worst.
2009 was a spoonful better but hardly sweet.
Here's to a fucking fantastical New Year full of awesome GOALS ATTAINED, FABULOUS NEW FRIENDS & LUSH FUN times.
XOXO
Give 2009 the finger and here's the 2010!!
oh Liz Liz Liz Liz…
i don't why but i always find myself feeling somehow "related" to your words, feelings, thoughts and etc. and this makes me feel stronger and stronger about my love and my fondness for you. you are like the "voice/loud" version of me and i love it
i love being here EVERY TIME.. i love that feeling as if we are actually having some kind of "conversation" EVERY TIME.. but basically, i love ya and your attitude towards life.. you can let go of things no matter what, which is so unlike me..
so darling hope you don't mind everytime i talk about "these" stuff above.. i can't help but say it.. over here.. and i'd like you to know that i'm REALLY SINCERE about what i say. i don't say it to just say it you know. hope you know that and hope you can tolerate me more in 2010
hope new year will be NEW for you and me.. in every respect..
love ya!! xoxo
p.s. i appreciate every word you say to me. so please stop considering it as a lecture you know
yeah, i have to begin to eat something or i'll end up being a stick wearing clothes 
Please recap the DCC workout video for me. It was on my Christmas list, but Santa must have forgotten it
While i cant say the same about 2009 (he's been alright to me), i can say goodbye and look forward to the future. I know it can be hard to see the good when the bad is constantly knocking at your door but you're doing just that.
I cant remember the exact quote but whenever shit hits me hard, i remember life's challenges are meant to make you stronger. Cheers to a new year!
I love new years! Yes it may not be some magical day where everything from the previous year goes away, but it's definitly a fresh start. Cheers to 2010!
Oh. And WTF is a cake ball!?! Haha.
you amaze me. i am so lucky to have you in my life. i look up to you. we will tackle 2010, for sure!
That was uber beautiful, Liz! I want to call you and gush and eat cakeballs over the phone right this very minute but you're probably sleeping:>
You're so right about letting go and being where you need to be. That is an affirmation of maturity, and I totes adore you because of it.
PS I am sooo glad that trash talkin, snatch-smelling cunt of a year is doing the walk of shame right on out of our lives! Get out, whore! Don't trip over your own ugly heels as you exit the cop car.
How did I miss that you have the Dallas Cowboys Cheerleaders workout DVD??? Ummm, I've been tempted to order it on my own, just out of morbid curiosity
And what are these magical "cake balls" of which you speak and where might I find one?
i nominated you for a blogger award on my blog honey!
Oh Liz, I love this post! I'm so glad I'm not the only one who goes through the same thing every New Years Eve. All that pressure of trying to make the night amazing, and making plans to ensure that the next year is better than the last. 2009 was horrendous for me too, and I'm very much looking forward to 2010. Here's to good times with good friends! Enjoy!
You are too funny, darling! Fave quote: "My 2009 is the equivalent of a mean muggin whore with bad hair."
Here's hoping that your 2010 is a beauty queen with lovely locks!
Happy NYE too!
xoxox,
CC
Cheers to new beginnings, dear. I know 2010 is going to be a good one!!! P.S. Are you moving to NY or what?
Happy New Year Liz!
I hope next year is great for you!
Goodbye to all the yucky stuff and heres to a great 2010!!
seriously liz, i am so grateful to know you through this great blogging world… you have taken the words right out of my mouth on several occasions and have inspired me with your wit and charm. Happy New Year beautiful girl… this is gonna be your year!
Your posts always make me smile, and laugh outloud. I'm sure my coworkers are walking by wondering what the hell I'm doing, but really who cares. Anyway, even if 2009 was pretty unbearable you learned some great life lessons about yourself and those around you, so you've got that goin' for you
2010 is going to 10,000x's better, I promise. Happy New Year, girly!
Happy New Year!
I can't WAIT for your 2010 to start already….February…come soon!! I can't promise to make it all better on the East Coast, but a little more cheery…hopefully! : )
Happy New Year! I hope 2010 is amazing for you, because you deserve it!
ah… thankfully 2009 is going away in a couple of days. wishing you the best 2010 and all your dreams come true. lots of hugs. SG
"I am learning that maybe I'm where I am supposed to be." <—PURE GENIUS RIGHT THERE…
and look i even spelled it right because i am serious…i love you and am soooo looking too bright shade future…
chhhhhh.chhh.chhhhanges…
Bring it on baby! This is gonna be a killer year for us. I know it. 2009 can suck it and 2010 is welcome to share my bottle of bubbly. So are you my dear friend. FEBRUARY!!!
Hell yea, it bitch slapped me too! 2009 has been, literally, THE WORSE YEAR OF MY LIFE! No questions asked, hands down.
I know, it has to be, 2010 will be better than EVER! I am with you.
Going to vote
I wish you just the best for 2010, I didn't liked 2009 either but now I am just praying that it will not get worse! I loved the way you said good bye to this year and welcomes the next. and I am sad I really wished for 2010 getting better when I awake at January 1st – so now you destroyed my hopes lol
Have a fabulous night!
i love you and i know that 2010 is going to be YOUR YEAR. i just know it, so there:)
and how do i get hooked up with some cake balls?
Preach on sister, preach on!!! I'm ready to make some changes and kick some ass in 2010. Bring it!
i totally agree with you. 2009 was nothing to brag about. i'm so looking forward to a new start in the new year.
i hope you have a very happy NYE!
Here is to the hap-hap-happiest new year since Bing Crosby tap-danced with Danny fucking Kaye!
You deserve it!
And douche lords? Dying!!!
xoxo
I hope 2010 is an amazing year for you!!
Thank you for such an amazing post!! Brought tears to my eyes! I love you! x
you're not alone…i was majorly bitch slapped numerous times this year. i think i'm gonna cry new year's morning cuz 2009 is finally over. here's to a fabulous 2010, love! xoxo
"I'm not where I thought I would be, but I am learning that maybe I'm where I am supposed to be." LOVE THIS!!! I am all for a new year! Way to start the year off right. Cheers to 2010!
Hello new year, GOODBYE bad year! You are so going to rock this year and you know what, even though you had some yuckiness in this year, it will only make you stronger Miss Liz! XO!
I had the same problem with health insurance and it suckssss. I work for a small company with no benefits and don't make much money so when my wisdom teeth starting pushing their way trough my jaw towards my other teeth I had a problem and had to pay for it out of pocket…
Still haven't paid it off. Thanks 2009, you're an ass hole.
First time here (from 20SB) — and I love it: "I'm not where I thought I would be, but I am learning that maybe I'm where I am supposed to be."
Here's to a healthy and happy 2010!!!
So glad I found you ~~ blogging friend ~~
xoxo
Hellls yeah! Cheers to that!
Moving on & letting go, 2010 is gonna be fabulous, I know it!
one of the best and most realistic resolutions i've ever heard…hope 2010 is amazing for you! xo
Happy New Year Liz…catch you in LA. I'm flying on the 4th. xoxo
Sending lots of love and wishes for a wonderful NEW Year to you dear Liz… I adore the way you welcome 2010 witha shoe compliment. I'm gonna have to try buttering her up too… seriously. I need a good year too. ♥
Will be sending a small virtual toast to you and NY tomorrow… *besos*
At first I just wanted to drop by and thank you for your nice comment.
But then wooow. You have such interesting blog and I think I'll subscribe right now hehe.
I dislike 2009 too, so ready to move on. Here's to an amazing year for all of us
*clink*
You always have the most honest, open posts. Such raw honesty shows your inner strength, so I'm absolutely sure that 2010 will be way way better than 2009!!
you're going to have an amazing year i know it! So excited for all your new adventures! Have a wonderful NYE!
Fabulous! Grab 2010 by the Horns!!!! It's all yours girl!
http://candyflosspersie.blogspot.com/
Strangely, I can't remember how i spent welcoming 2009 on it's new year's eve. I think 2009 has been a good year for me Mashaallah. I've learned a lot-gained a lot.
I love how you're completely determined to make a fresh start. Letting go is always the best thing you can do for your heart.
On my way to voting for you!
Congrats.
I have no idea what you're talking about, but I can kinda relate to it. wish you all the best!
Happy New Year, darling liz!
X♥X♥
TELL me how that video is, Turn it on and do it right now.
Ms Elizabeth…my fingers are crossed that we both have an amazing 2010. Only good things to happen. Lets make it work!!
Throat punch to 2009, open arms to 2010!!
xoxoxo
2009 was just one big let down after another, for a minute it seemed like everything would be okay and then, oh, the rug gets yanked out. So I know all about the "punk'd" analogy!
So 2010 has some making up to do to!
PS: Found you from 20SB!
~Angie
angiegoboom.com
Aloha 2010, kick 2009 in tha ASS! ALL THE BEST LIZZY! love xoxo
Slam the aught-9 door shut with your hot ass stiletto and give 2010 a big, fat, wet kiss. It's gonna be your year, my dear.
That mean mugging whore can bite me. 2010 is lookin goooooood. I'm excited to great it with a little somethin somethin and make it a good year.
So let's look forward and have some great ole fun! Love you lady!!
2009 totally sucked big time for me. Can I just say I totally love your openness and kick your butt attitude?
2010 is your year lady. Big hugs!
just wrote a really lame good riddance 09 post…nothing compared to your genius writings!! I too am looking forward to 2010! Happy New Year lady xoxo
kobi beef
first of all i just want to say i absolutely love your blog. ive been reading it for a while now and it is one of my faves. and then if you ever comment on my blog i freak out bc youre like a celebrity haha. so anyways, thanks for the comments. sorry about the bad year, just remember that everything happens for a reason. this year will be better for you, i can feel it ♥
Omg, shut up. I definitely asked for the same Dallas Cowboys Cheerleaders fitness DVD for Christmas and ended up getting it for myself. It's fun but you may have to put it on mute, some of those girls have ear shatteringly annoying voices.
Also on deck, Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred. She's currently whooping my ass on a daily basis.
Happy holidays!
<3 always,
tee.
Purely inspirational. Thank you. My best wishes for 2010!! <3
Girl, you just summed up my sh*t of a 2009. Here's to a "it can't possibly get worse" kinda year. Bring it, 2010. I FULLY embrace you. Wishing you much strength, patience, energy and peace of mind to really live it up in 2010.
Happy 2010!!!!
Let it be 4563 times better than the last one!
Looove the way you expressed yourself here, as always. Can't wait to hear all about the badass adventures you're sure to have in twentyten! Love you! XOXO
This is one of my all-time favorite posts, lady bug. (Bug lady.) I believe you are where you're supposed to be and the unfolding, and blossoming, of your life is beautiful. Love you.
Hello 2010- amen and I hope you had a great NYE!!
I think this year was rough for like, a kagillion people I've spoken with… I love that you're not giving up – you're sticking with it, even when things aren't completely fabulous. You're so brilliant, and I'm so happy that you've opened up with us, and shared the ups and downs of your life in 2009. You're wonderful, and you deserve the best, and I'll be crossing my fingers that 2010 brings that for you, sweetheart! You're just wonderful, and I've missed talking with you terribly. Love you!
Tonsils… don't do it until you have awesome insurance (mine sucked, I had it done… and I still am burried in bills…) and have a good month to lay low.
And 2009- adios. I was ready to say goodbye to that year and welcome in the new. I loved this post- And I'm not where I thought I should be either… but I'm realizing, like you, that perhaps I am right where I'm supposed to be. And I trust that…
i hear ya on that one! thank god its over!
Oh huns, can I be you when I grow up??? I might be in a "relationship" but I still feel REALLY LONELYYYY most of the effin time. I wish I could be as positive as you are. I really think you should open up a class, I'll take it!!! LOL
btw we are still up for the rose bowly on the 10th. I guess I'll email u at some point this week…
Kisses XO
love you, sweetie. This is our year to own. here for you every single step of the way.
xoxo
kudos and best wishes.
Love Love Love. Snookie comment, everything- love it!
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