Alternative title-Well, this is awkward.
I’ve never really had to think about making friends. Before you roll your eyes, no it’s not because I’ve always been so oh my god popular! It’s because I was born with a built in best friend, a twin sister. From the jump, I’ve had someone to talk to, someone to relate to and experience life with.
And then, yeah, I’ve been pretty lucky in the friend department
Until now.
I’m sure my sister and friends who are reading this right now are like ummm…hi? But here’s the thing. I have friends all over the world…the girls I count as my best friends are in Southern Cali, Vegas, Arizona, Canada…but I’m in a new city where I don’t know a soul, and there’s really no fancy way to say it…I’m lonely, you guys. I visit home a lot and see my girls and my sister, and I know that where we are living right now is temporary, but I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t missing something.
I miss random chats at the Coffee Bean. I miss frantic last minute shopping trips when one of us just needs to buy something because…well, just because. I miss late night frozen yogurt runs with my sister. I miss gym dates, yoga dates and I miss movie nights where we’d drink wine and talk too much to possibly pay attention to the movie.
I miss face to face, in real life, laughing til you cry friendship. And even though our living situation is temporary, I want to make the most of it. Just because something is temporary doesn’t mean it’s not important, I mean hello, LIFE is temporary.
Now, ya’ll know that I adore my boyfriend. That when it comes down to it, he’s my bestest bestest friend. He’s great…he tries to fill in for the lack of girl time I’ve had lately, bless his lil heart. But I know he could give two shits about the Bachelor and if false lashes are in fact appropriate during the day (I’m still on the fence). Plus, I like to obsess about things a lot, it’s quite the hobby of mine and he just wasn’t born with that gene. I need an obsess-er buddy!
No matter how fantastic he is, a girl needs more than just her guy. And I know that it starts with me-I know that I need to get out there, that I need show up at the yoga studio with a smile on my face and be open. It’s just a little weird to be looking for friends at this stage of my life, you know? I feel like a creeper…like they’ll think I’m going to expect them to wear a super stylish promise ring or something…
Why is there not an online dating site for new friends? Oh wait, I think there is. It’s called the internet.
I mean, I hope you didn’t come here looking for answers, because I really don’t know. What I do know though is this experience is making me appreciate my dear friends a hell of a lot more than I ever have. When I tell them “I can’t wait to see you!” I don’t think they have any idea just how much I mean it.
I really, really mean it.
So for now, I’m holding on to that…to them, no matter how far away we all are from each other. I’m holding on to the girls I can call at all hours of the day, the skype chats that almost almost almost feel like we’re in the same room, and the blessing of knowing that we’re all just a plane ride away. We have an extra bedroom, ladies. 
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